Jesslyn's Diaries

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2012-02-08T01:55:00.000-08:00

男人，
如果你不能给女人幸福，
请过主~

心。声

2012-02-08T00:50:00.000-08:00

男人往往认为自己对婚姻具有恐惧感及压迫感，
但他们忽略了女人其实也是一样。
男人向往自由，
其实女人也是一样。
很多东西，
男人都认为只有自己有压力，
但，女人也是一样。

其实，give and take.
有谁能明白呢？
如果你不能对感情牺牲，
那么不要要求别人和你一样。

有时候不是不懂，只是不想懂；有时候不是不知道，只是不想说出来；有时候不是不明白，而是明白了也无能为力，于是就保持了沉默。有些话，适合藏在心里；有些痛苦适合无声无息的忘记；有些回忆，只适合偶尔拿出来回味。很多事，当经历过，自己知道就好；很多改变，无需说出来的，自己明白就好。

2012

2012-01-02T06:21:00.000-08:00

很快的，2011年结束了。
2012年到达了。
2012的前半段，将是我最辛苦的日子。
因为需要实习，需要考试。
我知道我无法回避这一切，但我会努力做好。
还有很多很多的东西等着我去实践。
很压力，但我会尽量把它变成推动力。
我也知道很多东西不在我的掌控之中，但在我掌控中的，我都会尽我所能，做到最好。

2012 目标：
1）学业方面-〉实习成功，考试顺利，面试过关。
2）钱财方面-〉赚多点钱，存多点钱，少花点钱。
3）健康方面-〉少生病，多运动。
4）其他方面-〉顺顺利利。

加油吧！咕咕！！
^^

书

2011-12-16T19:34:00.000-08:00

到大众书局逛逛。
说不买书，结果。。
还是买了。
喜欢它的封面，更喜欢它的书名。
每一次相遇都是奇迹- 吴淡如

剪发

2011-12-15T05:35:00.000-08:00

最近真的很爱剪发。
越短越好。
看看最近刚剪的发型，
嗯，不错看哦~ ^^

不过，有人说我像男孩。
晕~~~

blue day

2011-09-19T00:07:00.000-07:00

I'm being so frustrated today.
helo, don't put your own thinking or perception on me lah!
if u feel that u have been treat badly and i have enjoyed those priority because of someone,
then i give u.
u all will never understand how stressful i faced.
and one more thing,
i don't think i have enjoyed those priority because my workload is still high!
shit!

I wanna shout out loud!

can I?

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ALOHA~

2011-09-04T03:04:00.000-07:00

erhmm~
there has been a long time since my last blog posted.but sometimes.......
I REALLY lazy to write out.XD
holidays are going to end. i done what should i do exclude ASSIGNMENTS! @.@ so terrible huh... And i know, my suffer time is coming. rushing rushing lagi. duh. nvm la, padan muka I.

Ling is going to play a basketball match later. his competitor is a strong team(according what he told me).
hope he can play well tonight.
NO.4, ALL IN ya!(shouting from my bottom heart!)

kla,
continue my movie~

loves.

birthday surprise for my ♥ 01.02.2011

2011-01-31T23:01:00.000-08:00

thinking what should i present to ling~

so fan.
because my ling is so choosy. XD (lalala~)
after i thought for so long,
this idea has came out from my mind!!!
da lang!!!
check it out!
.
.
.
.
baking baking~

slowly wanna huat liao~

huat liao huat liao~so excited!!!XD

huat till like volcano!!@.@

after cut off the volcano, sui sui sui!!!XD

making the chocolate icing~

see, so pekat~~lolz

sapu sapu for the whole cake~

decoration~

done!!! ^^
my ling's birthday cake.

this is my very first handmade cake in my life.
felt so touched and grateful after success to make it.
hope he will like it.

happy 25th to u~ling!
muckssss~~~

p/s: this is not a present yet..this is just a small xin yi~

love

bye bye 2010, welcome 2011

2010-12-30T04:16:00.000-08:00

there is another one day to go and after that I gonna say bye bye to 2010. rethink what I have done in this year.

1) quit the frustrated XX job and joined education world--> became a teacher!
2) got a boyfriend who so so pamper me. (although sometimes he will kek me!hmph.)
3) got my MBA course in UPM. finally!!but, i just studied for one sem and then defer it. felt so bu she de. but no choice.why??plz check no.4. because...
4) got my KPLI-KDC at Perlis. hurray!!! this was the hardest but I'm damn so lucky to get it.XD but, North again!=.=''' nvm, i still felt so happy on it!!^^

These are the important incidents which happened on me in 2010 . I felt that I'm quite lucky in this year because what i dream have come true.(although I have passed through few challenges.) Btw, got to know a lot of friends from workplace, UPM and IPG too~I'm felt blessed and appreciated on what I got now.

Thanks god for always protect me and listen to my heart, thanks to my family especially dad n mum who always support me (both of u are the greatest!!love~mucks!!),thanks to my ling who always be with me no matter what happen(love you! mucks~),thanks to all of my friends who stay beside me(thumb up to all of you^^). Blessing and wishes from me to all of you will be given from time to time. ~.~

2010, a up side down year for me. hopefully 2011 will be a different year for me. I know there are many challenges waiting for me, but, doesn't matter. no challenge, no life. This is what I think. I should list out what i have to do in the coming year. my aim, my goal, etc.. the most important is, I must achieve it!XD (harap-harap lar...)

this might be the last post for 2010.

*BYE BYE 2010, HELLO 2011*

a busy month-December

2010-12-12T00:02:00.000-08:00

it has been a long time i never blog out anything again!
busy + lazy =D
finally i get my KPLI-KDC course and i felt i'm quite lucky on it.
After this, i will become a permanent teacher!!!!XD
my FOREVER gold bowl!
thanks god and thanks to everyone who gave me the support and wishes~
one of the thing which surprised me was,
I got the North part again!
and this time was at Perlis! pheww!
No matter how,
I appreciated on what i got,and i knew that i will never regret on it.

I started my KPLI-KDC course during the school holiday.
means that, my holiday gone T.T
Perlis was a very incurious place.
no place to play,and no night life.
People here are living peacefully.
they seem don't like to work until late night.
the shop will close at early night and the street will be very quiet.

Talk about my study life.
My class has 25 people. 22 ladies, 3 gentlemen.
XD
and, there were only 3 people from KEDAH, and the rest were from SELANGOR!
gosh~~~
glad to know them.
quite fun actually.
we always went here and there in groups.
memories are started to build in my mind.

LIFE is like that huh....
people come in and out.
we will never expect who we will meet in the next station.
as long as we appreciate what we have now.
that's enough~~~

going to continue my assignment again.
sienzzz...
will try to update my blog frequently.....if i am free!
XD
chaoz..

忙

2010-11-09T05:15:00.000-08:00

这两个月来都忙得不可开交。。。
很少时间写blog。
其实是，有点懒！
原以为过了10月就应该很空闲了，
那知道11月还有event要做。咳。。。。

心情和自己过意不去。。。
X 的！！
没力了。。。
现在的头脑有点blur blur 的。。。
想睡觉。。

掰！

隐瞒

2010-09-12T06:09:00.000-07:00

心很慌。。很乱。。。
为什么要隐瞒？？
是我想太多吗？

holiday ends

2010-09-10T20:06:00.000-07:00

woke up early morning today for my jogging session.
finally we made it!
but ling said i didn't really run.
he said he dunwan to bring me for jogging next time.
hmph.
maybe too long never exercise, i felt my stamina was getting worse.
lari sedikit pun sudah chuan.
didn't sweat alot pun.
getting unhealthy.cham.
dun care lar, next time go again. phee...

come back to my holiday.
gosh, going end soon.
what am i doing during this holiday?
none!
ah ha, i think got.
watching tvb series for whole day and night.
XD
公主嫁到quite nice to watch.
and the result is,
i never study at all!!! T.T
die jor this time.
a bit guilty liao..
that's why today guai guai stay at home and do revision.
my target for today--> study as much as i can.
=p

result

2010-09-08T08:17:00.000-07:00

my mid term result for OB was just released.
terrible bad.
sien ><
although not only me got the bad result, but i still felt bad.
started nervous.
how can i score in the final?
seems like not easy.
anyway, i need to push myself more harder and harder.

talk about my mid term again, there is still one paper to go.
economics.
actually i'm having one week school holiday and i suppose to study now.
yet,
i spent my time in marking books and relaxing.
die...
a bit nervous after see my mid term result for OB.
i shouldn't berlengah-lengah already.
but, i can't find my mood.
how eh?
help me....T.T
ok lah, tomorrow i will guai guai go study a bit.

talk about my gathering just now.
i thought we quite bad.
keep talking someone's bad thing.
muahahaha..
not we kepo lar.
but just released something in our mind.
and we found out one thing,
yuyu is our kong tong de friend eh...
and i promised everyone that i will draw the circle circle thing.
neh,remembered when we were in form 4 or 5,
we learned the Maths->wat intersect, subset smtg like that..
and i felt that it can represent our relationship by drawing this.
will draw soon because ah bing is waiting for my drawing.

XD

pics of ♥♥♥♥

2010-09-05T23:07:00.001-07:00

my only kuli

ling took my blur blur face..hmph!

alot of ppls.

taken while waiting for cable car..
i prefer this because i more cantikXD

lobby of first world hotel

with two cute mascot..XD

finally i can upload my genting trip's pictures.
not much, but is memorable.
♥

geramnya!!!

2010-09-05T20:08:00.000-07:00

i dunno why i can't post out the picture!!?!
what happen?
keep saying can't post out the html this kind of thing!!?!
shit!
anyone can tell me?

our first trip 04-05.09.2010

2010-09-05T20:00:00.000-07:00

after planned for one month,
finally we went to our first trip ---> genting.
It was quite excited and happy,
however,some incidents happened and ruined up the trip.

we arrived cable car station around 2pm and waiting the cable car for half an hour.
terrible!
but the most terrible thing was,
we waited for check in room for 2 hours!
yet, the result was,
we can't get our room due to some procedure problems.
hate first world!!
sigh..
so disappointed and down at the moment.

no matter how,
i just wanna be with ling.
so my mood started turn better.
I knew ling was guilty and angry.
but he can't do anything also.
I never blame on him because i knew he tried his best already.
❤ him!

anyway,
we have a peace night together as well.
happy 5 months anniversary to ling~ mucks!❤

s t r e s s

2010-08-23T07:21:00.000-07:00

will face my very first mid term exam on tomorrow for my master study .
STRESS UP!!><
just finished study 3 chapters out of 6 chapters.
(lect said we just need to aim for 3 chapters because we just needed to answer 3 questions)
hopefully i can answer it.

anyway,
i have not start memorize it...
argh!!!!!
how????
T.T

领悟

2010-08-09T00:56:00.000-07:00

从前，荒岛上住着爱情，快乐，伤心和吵架。
有一天，
快乐，伤心和吵架都选择了离开那荒岛，
只剩下爱情选择留下来陪着它。。
日子渐渐的过去了，
荒岛将沉入海底。
爱情在没办法之下必须离开了。
它找了吵架，但吵架的船已载满了太多东西，
所以无法载它了。
它找了伤心，但伤心的船也已载满了太多东西，
所以也无法载它了。
最后，它找了快乐。
但快乐的船太沉醉于快乐当中，
所以也没理会它。
在爱情以为它即将消失时，
突然来了一艘船，并载了它。
那艘船的名字是--

时间

很多人都说，时间能证明一切。
但，
在等着时间证明的时候，
彼此都必须懂得应该做些什么。
其实，
时间证明的结果，
就是你在一段感情里所付出应得的代价。

想法

2010-07-31T08:42:00.000-07:00

在听了一些话后，
心情很难好起来。
原来，
该面对的，
有很多。。。
信心开始动摇了。。。
我高估自己了。。。
原来自己并没拥有那么大的影响力。。。

坦荡荡一点，
诚实点，
难道不好吗？
总好过在很久之后，
知道了一些东西，
而不知如何面对。。。

我开始迷惑了。。。

乱

2010-07-25T03:12:00.000-07:00

很多事情，
真的。。。
没那么简单。。。
撩乱的思绪，
占了我整颗脑袋，
也弄糟我的心情。。。
突然，哪里都不想去了。。
把自己锁在房里，
lappie放着歌，
然后坐在它的面前，
发呆。。。
看着地上一大叠向图书馆借来的书，
想了想，
也许几米的画册，
能平复我的心情。。。

------〉如果我会画画，那该多好？？T.T

思绪

2010-06-26T07:48:00.000-07:00

距离写上个blog已有一段时间了。。
刚从台湾回来，
很多东西需要解决和适应。

小燕得到了KPLI，明天将到KELANTAN进行师训了。。
舍不得她，
毕竟我们在工在私都是很好的。。
希望她一切顺顺利利。。

而我则得到了梦寐以求的MBA。
经过几番波折后，
终于等到了！
但，
得到后的心情，
很矛盾。
突然很害怕自己会应付不来。
害怕自己不够坚强。
真的需要时间来适应。

发觉这几天我在闹情绪。。
其实并不是闹，而是我真的觉得很奇怪。。
为什么？？
咳。。。。。

i hate nag!!!

2010-05-30T06:57:00.001-07:00

nag nag nag!!!
can you please don't always nag??
i'm feeling so annoying!!!!!
not i don't want be an understanding person,
is,
can you be fair a bit??
emo arr!!!!!!
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!

la la la-4

2010-05-20T06:47:00.000-07:00

nothing to do at night recently.
so freeeee!
sick for few days.
sneezing and sore throat.
argh!!!!!!!!!!
can 'u' recover soon??
i wanna sing k!
i wan eat ho liao!
so sad~sigh!
ling will go for his interview on tomorrow.
wish him all the best and grab this job!!
po pi po pi oo~~

GOOD LUCK!!^^
mucksssssssss!!!

sweet ♥ time~

2010-05-18T07:23:00.001-07:00

as i mentioned at the previous post,
I've enjoyed my wonderful Sunday with ling at secret recipe.
and,
i accidentally found out that his i phone have LOMO application!!!
XD
it was fun and the photo effect was very nice!!
great great great!

let's look the pics:

shot for a part of the shop~

m e

h i m

o u r s

nice white coffee

his lappie and 'energetic' drink

ling's leg~XD

enjoying~~

and,i was enjoyed too!
with the LOMO =)

la la la-3

2010-05-15T23:03:00.000-07:00

i'm feel good~
received a surprise present from ling yesterday.
shocked when i see it and i'm keep laughing!!
how come ??how come is this?!?!
he is so so so so cute lar!!
what is the present?
huhu...i won't tell..
secret!!
XD
thanks ling for it!mucksss~~

again~i'm feel good~
because i'm at secret recipe with ling now..
haha....

i'm feel good~da lam da lam da lam da~

h a p p y . m u m ' s . d a y

2010-05-11T04:21:00.001-07:00

well,
we were celebrating mother's day at a special place in this year.
guess where??
.
.
.

is at Neway, Centro Klang.
there was the very first time i brought my family went to there and sing k
everyone seems enjoyed especially dad!
keep making fun..beh tahan him!XD
mum just sang few songs due to her sore throat.
she just keep listening what we sing.
and, i found out that my 2 bros were talent in singing!!!!
nice voice wow..
got kaki liao..XD
anyway,
it was a very special and memorable mother's day for our family.

lovely parents~

dad and youngest bro~

3 of us~

phew pit!! they are singing!!! XD

my very own sweet family ever~mucks~~

me me~lolz

happy MOTHER's day to MUM!
you are the greatest!!
mucks~~

Walk walk . Eat eat (2)

2010-05-07T08:12:00.001-07:00

Just hang out with my friends for dinner on last Wednesday.

yien joh us went to House of Buffet, which located near Laoyat,KL.
because...
according what she said, the price is so so so cheap for a buffet.
RM29.90 per person!!!! while the normal price is RM88!!!
WOW!!!!
unbelievable right??? XD
ya, it happened ok???
the foods at there are quite ok. some are very special.
but,we all felt been cheated by something.
the ICE-CREAM!
according to the website, it mentioned that the ice-cream is new zealand ice-cream.
however,
when we went there and look, there is not new-zealand ice-cream!!!
is a home made ice-cream!!!!!!
sien loh!!!
but,
nothing much we can do since we sit down and paid already...><
anyway, it was quite fun cause we keep taking the food and eat and chatting~
nice dinner as well!!

0(^^)0

pictures to share:

a table of foodsssss!!! XD

beng chi
he is the only one who taken the picture alone.
you know why?
because....he is a boss!!!!!
muahahaha....

xiang, me, yuyu
cheerzz!!!!
(actually is hot tea XD)

loke, yien, tat
members of teow family. ^^

4 of us.
cheese!!~.~

ops, one thing to mention,
i was sleeping like a little pig when we were on the way going back home.
muahahaha...
too tired already lar!!!!

XD

sueh day

2010-05-04T05:46:00.000-07:00

such a sueh day today.
not for me, is for three person.
but kinda influenced my mood now.

first, ling.
he just had accident last few hours ago.
and, i was sleeping when he is calling me!
I never heard the phone ring and see the message also.
wth of me..T.T
i'm so so bad!!!
stunned when he called me at 7pm.
felt anxious on him and luckily he is alright.
but, his car is not really alright.><
no matter how, i just want my ling safe and no hurt!
felt very very sorry and guilty to him because i'm not being with him when he faced the accident.
feeling like to see him and hug him at this moment.
i think i will only feel he is safe when i see him.
how??? *sob sob*
sorry ya ling~~can't be with you now.
miss you so much~

second, my youngest bro.
suddenly nose bleeding during eating the dinner.
quite alot.
I remembered that he bleed often when he still a kid last time.
doc said his blood vessel in his nose is thin and easy bleeding if he dig it.
He started not bleeding after mum cooked some 'bu pin' for him every week.
but,
after few more years,
It happened again.
last week and today.
sigh...
we all are worrying about him now.
wondering whether is hot weather or he dig it.
from what he said, he never dig it.
guessing that he need to drink back the black, smelly,weird 'bu pin' again!
pity him~
hope he will be alright soon.
aww~~sayang sayang ya ah bi..

third, mum.
mum is sueh today, because of my bro lor..
nose bleeding.
actually she kinda tired today.
have tuition after work and need to cook also.
thought can rest after eat the dinner.
who knows,
my bro's thing make her more worried and fan.
haih...
thinking that she won't sleep well today...
mum always so grandness.
what i can do is, ask her not so worry.
everything is gonna be alright.

dear god, kindly protect all my loves can go through all the bad things in this critical period.
sueh thing go, good thingssss come!!
may god bless you all.
*praying harder*

nice weekend

2010-05-04T01:49:00.000-07:00

had a nice Saturday last week.
celebrated sin's birthday at neway, centro klang.
but i can't get to eat the cake...>< (cause i left earlier)

after that,
went kai kai with ling and watched movie with his geng at bukit tinggi.
IP man 2!!!
woohoo!!!
DONNIE YEN~cool man as well...XD
actually i prefer his body..muscle man..nice shape..lolz

while waiting for the movie time,
there was something surprise happened in front of the cinema.
we met A Niu!!!!
muahahaha....
he came jusco and promote his movie- ice kacang puppy love~
such a very local movie but nice to watch.

A Niu and his 'brother' in the movie,yi jie qi~

he is singing the theme of movie-纯文艺恋爱
nice voice..nice song ~.~

before i entered the cinema,
i was dreaming that,
will I meet DONNIE YEN later???
XD

p/s: ling bo lat with me after i told him my dream...XD

surprise pressieee~

2010-05-03T01:18:00.000-07:00

received a surprise present at this morning.
shocked and stunned at there when yien put in front of me.
she said : " this is your graduation present from us."
argh~~~~
so touched!!!

actually i felt more shocked when i open up the present.
is a lazo diamond RING!!!
wow!!
never expect it~
touched again..T.T

great packaging and nice ring as well~
i ♥ it!
thanks to all my buddies~
mucks mucks....

and i wanna say,
i have married to all of u already~since u all presented me a ring...XD
la la la la la~~

la la la-2

2010-04-29T03:43:00.000-07:00

recently a lot of things to do lar...

my exam papers have been rejected and need to edit some wordings..><
then, as pendidikan moral teacher, i need to settle the program nilam thing..
erm..calculating how many books do the students read in library within half of year...
i'm wondering why so ma huan???
samo..i got 2 classes!!!! *mad*
will try my best to settle as soon as possible.. because the due date to hand on is.....5th may!!!

oh ya, one more thing is,
i have found out something on myself.
just see this first.

did i looked like a mouse???
there was my first feeling after i captured this pic...
why???how come??
felt so ugly and funny...
felt wanna delete it at the moment but ling don't let me to do it..><
and, actually this pic is terbalik...
i was wondering how come i-phone so so so special lor...
the terbalik version make me looked more funny....this one more normal after rotated it...
ling keep laughing while seeing it...hmph!
samo put as my contact picture in his phone!
hate him!
but,nvm lar...since he said me CUTE!!
*muahahahahaha*
let it be....

ok...i feel wanna laugh again!!!
XD

sport day 25.04.10

2010-04-26T04:02:00.000-07:00

promised to upload pictures for sport days..

here we go
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.
.
.

blue team-see the teachers were so happy..lolz

green team- nice smiling from the team teachers~.~

orange team- the students yeah till...lol...

yellow team..ops..the leader seems so serious..><

red team- my team for this year!!^^

my representatives from 1M!! all the cuties!!^^

students from 1K~

before start the ceremony

teachers~

cute scouts~

all standing in the middle of field

they are ready to go......

gogoGooo!!! run run RUNNN!!!

wei yao: i'm ready!!!

finally we won!!^^

pull ah pulllll!!

received present from principal..i won the game!!muahaha...XD

who is more darker???

that's all for the pictures!
anyway, quite enjoyed and the result of that is....i'm become more darker!!!

holiday

2010-04-25T23:38:00.000-07:00

finally finished the sport day yesterday!! my school purposely applied special holiday on today for all teachers and management!
HORRAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!^^

woke up at 9 smtg today and fetched my bro went back MMU cyberjaya for presentation.
felt sleepy while driving..weather too hot and the sunlight make my eyes felt tired..sigh!
and i still have to wait him for 1 1/2 hours and fetch him back..this sis is nice enough right??XD

while waiting for him,i went to find my ling for lunch!!!kekeke...
the very first lunch for both of us during weekday time (cause working ma ><)
such a precious lunch time~
see, i make my holiday become so meaningful..haha....
but, i have wasted my food because i just ate mum's cook..so felt full...haih...
pity ling...need to help me eat some..
will he become fat in the future???
i think...he will......kakakaka XD
dun blame me ya....muahahaha....

after finished lunch and fetched ling back to company, i turned back to MMU and fetch my bro again...argh! drive drive drive!!!
felt super duper sleepy while driving...
and, at the end is,
my car nearly kena bang by a van!!! samo is PBSM van!!!!
the van drove like siao lang...no direction to go...keep turn right and left...
wonder that is the driver get drunk??haih...
luckily that i reach home safe! phew~

will take a nap soon!
but, before that,

can i say : PLZ don't knock my little silver again!!!!!! it seems so kolian already lar!!!
hmph! i must protect it well!!

rehearsal of sport day

2010-04-23T00:44:00.000-07:00

started the rehearsal in the early morning yet ended up in the afternoon..
kinda exhausted and tired!><

Not very smooth as we think because it was raining for a short period of time...the practice has to be stopped. besides, some rules for the games are keep changing plus the Very Important Teacher who in charged for the games is absented. Make everyone confused........haih....

There is something happened on me today. innocently kena 'wat' by a teacher...she said i helped the students to tarik tali wor.....sounded ridiculous because...i mana ada larat to tarik tali leh..i think i will kena tarik by tali lor!!sigh...i just standed beside my students and shouted gambatte to them..actually i din really care on this matter because i knew she is making joke on that time .but, after my mum talked with me and my students asked me, then only i realized that there is not a SMALL matter!!! because after she used mic and said me, students from other teams are shouting : 'hor.......' wth!!! totally spoil my image!! i never do lor!! but students dunno...mum quite angry on this, because her daughter kena 'wat'!! haih....whatever lar, as long as i never do....but, honestly..........i get something from this incident..

The moral of the story is: talk what should talk in an occasion and think twice before talk.

kolian tai me......T.T

bussie week

2010-04-22T05:06:00.000-07:00

ah ha!
such a long time never write something in my blog..kinda lazy...@@
busy for nearly one week because of setting exam paper, writing the number for sport days etc..
rushing all the things in one shot...
the feeling at the moment is...
STRESS + PRESSURE+LONG PIAK!
and finally,
completed all!!!!muahahahaha...proud of myself...^^Y
ok la,i knew i got simply emo and easy fired up during this period of time...sigh!
sorry to my love....
no matter how, it is all over! ~.~

just had the first rehearsal for sport day today..under a super big hot sun!
but i quite enjoying on it especially looking at my 'children' played the games!
kinda funny and make me keep shouting for my own team!(although i knew there is just a rehearsal XD)
I'm thinking...what will happen during this coming sport day??
I think i will lost sound!!hahahaha...
oh ya,will become a blacky or chocky also...argh!!
can't wait for this sunday....=)

recently me~by my ♥

p/s: will try to take the sport day's pics and upload here....(if i got time to take it...XD)

心。情

2010-03-17T21:53:00.000-07:00

又很久没上来写写东西了。。。今天的心情有点怪。。。
原以为拥有了自由和空间，就能让我可以好好沉淀自己的心情，准备后再向它挑战。。。
但，恍然大悟之余，发现我有恐惧症。。。
想了很久，确定了自己要的是什么后才知道原来已经有东西隔着了我和它的距离。。。
不再轻易触碰它，才不会让自己陷入不安，痛苦及伤害。。。
我自私了。。我承认，无私的我变得很自私。。。不再伟大，不再轻易付出。。。所以选择不向前。。。宁愿等到看见了别人对我的付出和努力，我才做决定。。。
我知道对爱我的人很不公平，但，我真的怕了。。。
轰轰烈烈这四个字，已经很难在我的脑海里出现。。。
我只想要很平静的，很甜蜜的，很舒服的。。。
可以吗？我能拥有吗？我不知道。。。
我只知道，要拥有这些，我必须踏出第一步。。。
请给我一些时间。。。我真的需要时间。。。
也期待我可以看见和感觉我想要的。。。

最近蛮喜欢这首歌。。。。歌词很简单，利落，但讲出了我的心声。。。

黄小琥 - 没那么简单
作词:姚若龙作曲:萧煌奇

没那麼简单就能找到聊得来的伴
尤其是在看过了那麼多的背叛
总是不安只好强悍
谁谋杀了我的浪漫
没那麼简单就能去爱别的全不看
变得实际也许好也许坏各一半
不爱孤单一久也习惯
不用担心谁也不用被谁管
感觉快乐就忙东忙西
感觉累了就放空自己
别人说的话随便听一听自己作决定
不想拥有太多情绪
一杯红酒配电影
在周末晚上关上了手机舒服窝在沙发裡
相爱没有那麼容易每个人有他的脾气
过了爱作梦的年纪轰轰烈烈不如平静
幸福没有那麼容易才会特别让人著迷
什麼都不懂的年纪
曾经最掏心所以最开心曾经
没那麼简单就能去爱别的全不看
变得实际也许好也许坏各一半
不爱孤单一久也习惯
不用担心谁也不用被谁管
感觉快乐就忙东忙西
感觉累了就放空自己
别人说的话随便听一听自己作决定
不想拥有太多情绪
一杯红酒配电影
在周末晚上关上了手机舒服窝在沙发裡
相爱没有那麼容易每个人有他的脾气
过了爱作梦的年纪轰轰烈烈不如平静
幸福没有那麼容易才会特别让人著迷
什麼都不懂的年纪
曾经最掏心所以最开心曾经
相爱没有那麼容易每个人有他的脾气
过了爱作梦的年纪轰轰烈烈不如平静
幸福没有那麼容易才会特别让人著迷
什麼都不懂的年纪
曾经最掏心所以最开心曾经
想念最伤心但却最动心的记忆

Jacky

2010-01-29T03:31:00.000-08:00

Sit in front of laptop...and think back something...
Suddenly, Jacky's face is appeared!
How is Jacky now?
Is it live happily at heaven?
It has left this world nearly 1 year...but the memory which it gave me is still fresh...
Jacky arr, jie jie hopes you can live happily ya~miss U!!!muckssss....

Dumb dumb jacky's look!!XD

la la la

2010-01-02T05:23:00.000-08:00

Sick since last sunday!-.-'''
gastric + vomit + lausai + headache....
make me feel suffering and body so weak... (still in a recovering mode) ><
body check up result is out!
cholesterol come back to me!! hate it!!><
have to drink more oats and eat more healthy food again...
found out that my body become more weaker..how come???
felt sorry to parents because make them worry...
i will guai guai de....T.T
FIRST aim for 2010---> make my body more healthier!!!!

Stay at home recently..lai lai han...rehat ma...lol
think alot...
fan my study stuff!!
how how how??
when my temporary transcript will reach my home?
when can I know i can study back!??!??
when can I quit my job!!??!Hmph...
uncertain future~~
SECOND aim for 2010---> MUST study back!!

Anyway, a brand new year reached! start a new journey as well. Hope everything will be smooth and be fine. GOD bless!! To everyone:

~HAPPY 2010!!!~

苦中一点甜

2009-12-09T06:29:00.000-08:00

最近都在追宫心计。。。从那里学到这句话。。
“苦中一点甜”
蛮有意思的。。。
人生并不会永远安稳的度过，一路上必定会有波折。。。
这只是看一个人如何去看待而已。。。
这几天想通了一些事情，心情也变得快乐些。。。
管它的。。。
只要对得起自己，对自己有交待，达到自己的要求，
这，就够了。。。
这是以前的我的原则，
有一段时期，它不见了。。。
但，
我开始把它找回来了。。。
很开心！！
我想，
这就是从波折中领悟到的东西。。。
没有人可以让你不快乐，只有自己能让自己不快乐。。。
快乐也是一天，不快乐也是一天，
那么，
为何不选快乐呢？？
谢谢我的朋友们。。。
有你们，让我好快乐。。。
最谢谢我的家人。。。
有你们，让我觉得家是最好的。。。
呵呵。。。。

思考

2009-11-28T06:16:00.000-08:00

得与失。。。
怎么分呢？？？

adventruous day~~

2009-11-28T02:10:00.000-08:00

Woke up early morning today. Finally I joined my buddies since last two weeks. We went to Taman Pertanian, Shah Alam!!!hurray!!!XD

So long never cycling..so kan ko during cycling especially naik bukit! But, it was very ci kek when turun bukit...strong wind and the feeling is........extremely high!!!!(although i scare fall down)muahahahaha...

AND, finally i get to play the BB gun---PAINTBALL!!!! XD
my dream come true!!!
i keep hiding inside the house...cause scare ppl shoot me ma..hahahaha...
i knew i'm chicken..but i really scare pain...lol..
anyway, i enjoyed very much!
thanks you guys!

Tired like hell after back home...but really enjoy it!!^^

me with the big gun!!!yeng mou???XD

with our two coaches..

with paintball loverssss~~~

h o m e s w e e t h o m e

2009-11-11T06:44:00.000-08:00

little silver is back!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so happy!!!!!!!!!!
^^

just for fun-1

2009-11-08T02:52:00.000-08:00

my nice yummy dragonfruit juice from mummy!!^^

such a healthy drink~~lolz

map-ing

2009-11-07T23:26:00.001-08:00

You know,
I hate to search the place from google map or google earth...because will make me feel more complicated on it!><
I prefer people tell me follow this or that signboard..lol..lazy me..XD

Actually i just wanna say,
someone is memorizing the map now....my drawing map.....hahahahaha.....
so cute!!!!!!!!!^^

Plan

2009-11-07T04:17:00.000-08:00

A lot of plans are in my mind now...
What can i do and what should i do???
NOT a little girl like last time..spend whatever I want...><
Stress!!!!!!><

Anyway, went to sing K after work...muahahaha...release the stress!!XD
I need entertainment so so much!
If not, i think i will gila!!!
No life at all!!

So,
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
I wanna shout!
I wanna jump!

XD

little silver

2009-11-05T04:51:00.000-08:00

little silver,
when you gonna be all right???
mummy miss you so so so so much!!!!! :(
hope can see you on next week ya!!!
promise will sek you more and more!!!
argh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~little silverrrrrrrr..............

touchie night 31.10.2009--->01.11.2009

2009-11-01T02:54:00.000-08:00

Worked on sat..half day..mood= sien + boring!!><
Once i signed in my msn at office,
1st comer, ben. Ask me any plan at that night. wanna have dinner with me. booked me.
while chatting,
2nd comer, hooi sin. Ask me same question.
while chatting again,
1st call in the morning, yien. Ask me the same question again!!
From there, i knew they gonna help me celebrate my big day! *touched*

At first we planned to go subang,
but the place is fully booked!!T.T
then, changed plan.
and,finally is at.....BBK!

Being the queen of the night.
served by friends.XD
chatting, eating...is fun!
After that, came my house, countdown-ing my 01.11.2009, drinking beer, sing birthday song, potong my 'cake'->baskin robbin ice cream, and korek the 'cake' and eat!muahahaha....

Even is a small celebration, but it made me touched and appreciated alot.
Thanks to all of my friends!
Friends who attend the dinner, friends who can't attend the dinner but calling me and sending me a message with blissful wishes, and friends who sending me the best blessing message through phone and facebook....
You know, I wanna shout:

Glad to have you all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!^^

hugs and kisses!
Wish all of you have a wonderful life and happy forever!=)
And, I gonna start my 23rd's journey!
God bless!

With my 'cake'..XD

buddies~~~

My present from buddies~arigato!^^

Loves

生命

2009-10-26T04:23:00.000-07:00

早上和死神打了招呼。。。
就那么霎那间，让我差点和大家说再见。。。
应该感到庆幸的是，
我和那个女司机闪得快。。。
人没事，车就伤了。。。T.T

情绪在回到家时就马上崩溃了。。。很不稳定。。。
哭得眼睛红肿。。。
就那么一点，差点和我最爱的家人道别。。。
只要想到这个，我的心就很痛苦，很慌，很怕。。。
身体都一直颤抖着。。。
吃不多，一直想要呕吐。。。
生命原来是无法预测的。。。
上一秒，还好好的。。。
下一秒，就会不见了。。。
很多东西在你还未察觉时就会出现。。。
也有很多东西在你还未察觉时就会消失。。。
猜不透，想不到，也捉摸不到。。。
突然领悟到，
生命可以很珍贵，
也可以轻得像根鸿毛。。。
原来，
这就是生命。。。

Walk walk . Eat eat (1)

2009-10-25T06:03:00.000-07:00

Found out a restaurant from newspaper last month.
It is located at Jaya One, PJ.
Kinda attract me because they have mentioned the 空中花园.
Sounds so great right??? haha...
Started to find out the direction...AND, finally,
I get to go there since last 3 weeks!!!XD
But, unfortunately,
I did not take the 空中花园 picture. >< Because I'm sitting inside the restaurant due to the hot weather(evening ma) and when comes to night, there are alot of peoples sitting at there and i'm so paiseh to take out my camera to snap the view.
Sigh..so bad...T.T

Anyway,
Some pictures to share...

The Menu~

Inside view~all in white~

garden's feel~

Forget what is the name of the meals..forgive me..hee...

And i just remembered this,
The most famous drink~Cucumber Lychee..nice!^^

Loves~

Trippie

2009-10-25T04:22:00.000-07:00

Just back from Genting. Tiredzz...
and i vomited once when I'm on the way go there..
Not me 'zha'...is my dad's driving skill prob...
he keep wanna showed how to pusing..and till the end,make my head pusing..sigh-.-'''

There are still nothing special in Genting..Maybe I'm getting older..haha..theme park is no longer suit for me..>< So, i went to casino!haha...
Well, it is a smoky place..zz..i hate it!
Make me scared and my heart almost jumped out when see the uncles aunties played the games!!
Omg...RM100 and above per game!!!! ><

You know what is the result of hand itchy?---> lose money.
I lose RM50 within half an hour.
So sad T.T
Promised myself---> next time, just see, no play!@.@

~Simply shot~

self-taking while waiting my food..~.~
and finally it comes,

Hawaiian Chicken Chop!!!^^

Loves~

Dream vs Reality

2009-10-21T05:46:00.000-07:00

Never get a good rest since working at current company...exhausted!@.@ OT OT OT...(without extra pay!!) sigh...I remembered that what my ji mui's lecturer told her: don't even sell your soul to your company. And, I always use back this sentence to tease and encourage her. BUT NOW, i'm doing the same thing with her. This is called Nemesis. T.T I miss my 8 hours sleeping time. I miss my wonderful night time (Dreaming now) =(

Another thing is--->Finally, i know the truth. An answer which I've been waiting for 3 weeks. An answer which delay and mess up all my plan. Should I happy or sad?? *wondering* Realised that,sometimes, dream will never come true....Anyhow, it still 'half come true'...should be glad??

A lot of things are playing in my mind now...decision is hard to make...but, at least i get fully supports especially from my family and friends...thanks!mucks.....

Is time to prepare myself to accept another life~ hopefully i won't get knock down!! Bless me!

Loves~

relaxing saturday night

2009-10-17T09:08:00.000-07:00

Supposed never think wanna go out tonight...

but you know, no dinner + leg started itchy. haha....

at the same time, YuYu 'oi' me in msn,

(according to someone, she is at KFC with Siew Bing)

Lay Peng also in msn,

(sounds so ngam ya..muahahaha)

then,

the plan is ON!

dinner at Station One!^^

At first tot today is sat night,singers will come along and sing song...

who knows......sigh!

then, Lay Peng said, today is deepavali...ppl no work....

hmm,a bit make sense....holiday right?haha...

met alot of friends while we are chatting at there...

samo met senior too!

the funniest is,

she smiled to us, and we also smiled to her,but after that we are keep thinking,

what is her name???

muahaha...

sampat-ing til 11pm only back home....tiring...

and, now is 12.37am...

gosh!

is time to sleep~

nitez nitez....

loves~

new beginner

2009-10-17T00:38:00.000-07:00

phew!!
Finally kau tim all the settings!!=D
Well well well, it has been a long time for me since the last blog at........erm...friendster???window live messager???haha...
Anyway, welcome to my very own blog again!

-Happy Blogging-

loves~